Idol (?), alt-indie singer, utaite
MISSION (ミッション)
As a performer, I want to evoke a range of emotions, like smiles and tears through the power of my vocals. In my alt-idol journey, I primarily focus on covering songs that stem from Japanese rock/indie/folk music.Despite being in a different language, the songs often feature introspective lyrics which resonates through my mind. Compared to generic J-Pop music, I feel like alternative songs can express feelings effectively without having to “suppress” it. They typically range between positive / negative emotions in a more subtle but authentic way.
history (ヒストリー)
At age 16, I began singing in Japanese after being in awe of Sakura Gakuin and BABYMETAL. I don’t have any singing experience or vocal training, so I ended up teaching myself. In 2018, I learned about the International Idol Network (formerly known as Overseas Idol Collection) and information about former idol, Amina du Jean. I don’t know why this peaked my interest, but I felt so inspired to become an idol.In November 2019, I had my debut performance which was a guerilla event at AnimeNYC. That same year, I joined an idol support alliance, Dem0nically D1vine (formerly AmbiFlora when it was an active group), until its disbandment in late 2020. I later founded my first group, PHOBIA, in 2021 (currently on indefinite hiatus).After constant rebranding, i wanted a change; a way to fully encompass any hidden emotions that were locked away in my heart. I started focusing on covering alt-idol songs and have continued to do so since then.In October 2023, I announced my “graduation” from the overseas idol community, but will continue to perform at certain events.
profile (プロフィール)Date of Birth: 05.03.1999 we’re not getting any younger.
Height: 157cm why do you need to know this?
Blood Type: O+ blood is blood.
Pronouns: They/Them accept me.
MBTI: INFP-T I’m not a rude person, so who cares.
Charm Point: Lip Shape it’s not important.Likes: Listening to music, freely stimming, watching cartoons/anime, late night walks, stargazing, napsDislikes: Loud noises, overeating, night terrors, heat, incompetence, feeling aloneHobbies: Poetry & creative writing, critical thinking, photography, singingImage / penlight color: white (白)
While “they” exist in the kaigai idol space, I don’t feel I fit the traditional idol mold — I take what resonates and make it my own. My concept, BREAK / REST, represents the peace and pain of one’s mental state. That awareness is what I want to contribute to since it’s been stigmatized within the J-Pop idol industry and beyond.Being able to spread self-advocacy towards my experiences in the human condition could help to support other individuals with a similar feeling of emotion. I’m not here to be perfect. I’m here to be honest while exploring vulnerability, identity, and imperfection.I am「𝐦𝐞」and they are them.
1. How did you choose your idol name?[The name "𝐮𝐧𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰𝐧" holds a profound significance to them as a performer. It not only represents the sense of mystery and intrigue surrounding their identity, but also serves as a reminder that it is perfectly okay to be in a state of uncertainty—especially in the kaigai idol community or regarding real life situations.]2. Elaborate on your concept.My concept is called 《break / rest.》❥ [BREAK (JP: ブレーク) represents my overall and/or current emotional state and the negative impact that it’s had over the course of time. I’ve been vulnerable about my neurodivergent life and personal struggles regarding my mental health that affects me.As I sing, I am showing authenticity because I believe it’s important as an idol in general. Of course, I do understand that oversharing information that contains sensitive topics is what I’m trying to work on since it can trigger other individuals. However, this is my story and I need to share it all.]❥ [REST (JP: レスト) represents a lighter, hopeful tone when I am stable, taking a step back from the darkness. Fortunately, there are times when my mind is calm and at ease and I take time to manifest in that positive energy.Though I’m usually not 100% fine, I still cover alt-idol music to add neutrality instead of purity and happiness. Don’t get me wrong — generic J-pop idol music is perfectly fine and I even listen to certain groups at times like SUPER☆GiRLS and Chō Tokimeki Sendenbu. However, I feel like it wouldn’t be right to mask my true emotions with a wholesome, cutesy song.Overall, I want people to understand that it’s okay to not feel 100% because it’s impossible to stay perfectly fine; it may be an easy day or perhaps a fun one, but it really depends on what an individual truly feels on the inside that they should listen to — and including myself. If able to explain that based on the songs I choose to sing, its meaning reflects my image and how others see the idol I am, which means having to choose wisely.]3. Who are “they”?[“they” are:
- the ones who try to define you before you define yourself.
- the ones that expect certain trends and categories.
- the ones who compare you, judge you, label you before you speak.
- the mainstream, the algorithm, the chorus of voices telling you how to act, look, feel, or succeed.They’re not evil. They’re just not 「𝐦𝐞」. I don’t exist to fit into “their” frame. I exist to be me—loud, quiet, strange, soft, real. This project, this sound, this space… is for anyone who feels the same.]4. Why did you choose to hide your face from the public eye after 6 years?I personally feel like my identity is irrelevant because I want my voice to be the one that “speaks” to others. I’m not afraid of people knowing what I look like because they already memorize my face by now. However, if I’m going to stand out as a singer, I want to take away the distraction that comes from visuals. Not only that, but it makes me more comfortable with myself because I don’t need to look a certain way on the internet for people to like me. My vocals should be enough and not the other way around; I’m content with that.
next event: yabaidoruuu!!! 2nd Halloween live
Sakura Matsuri 2025
JPOP Stage x YABAIDORUUU!!!
APRIL 12-13 — Washington, DCOtakon 2024
YABAIDORUUU!!! GODS vs. DEMONS Alt Idol Showdown
AUGUST 2 — Washington, DCKogaracon 2024
1st Idol Festival
MAY 4 — Edison, NJTri-State Idol Union 2023
1st Virtual Idol Festival
MAY 5 — OnlineDerpyCon 2022
Halloween Guerrilla Live
unknown. x CyberNemui w/ Julily Infinite (special guest)
OCTOBER 29 — New Brunswick, NJChocolate Idol Network 2021
New Year’s Eve Showcase
DECEMBER 31 — OnlineIdolCon 2021
Masquerade
JUNE 12 — OnlineIdol Variety Virtual Stage 2020
SEPTEMBER 19 — OnlineChocolate Idol Network 2020
CocoAidoru Cafe: Chocolate Idol Showcase
JUNE 20 — OnlineAnime NYC 2019
Guerrilla Live
NOVEMBER 17 — New York, NY
[Member of Dem0nically D1vine ]